Where are you leading me?

Have you ever wondered where God is taking you? Why you are going through the trials of your life? Sometimes it is just too much to bear. Why am I suffering this? Why is someone I love making bad choices? I get lost. I don't understand God's plan. During this time in my life I have suffered extreme loss of a relationship. I don't understand. I don't know what God is doing. What is His plan? Is this a puzzle that I just can't solve? It feels like a mystery that I need to solve. Become a private investigator and find out who and what is going to benefit from this. Is it me? Is it my family? Or is it someone I don't even know that may be looking in? Questions that I really have no answers to. Questions that I have searched for and still don't have the solution. But what DO I know? I know that God is there. I know that God goes before me. I know that He was waiting for me in this dark place. I know that He is waiting for us wherever he is allowing us to go. What a comfort to know He is ready. Waiting... His arms stretched out for me saying, "my child." He is a comforter. He is MY comforter. I don't know His plan but I do know that I want God to be a part of it. Not just a part of it but ALL of it. I want to count on Him for all that he has to offer me. For His plans are great! What better plan do I have? Nothing... My inspiring scripture is

Psalm 139:7-10

New International Version (NIV)

⁷ Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?
⁸ If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
⁹ If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,
¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me,
    your right hand will hold me fast.

 There is no greater comfort than this for me. He is there! Hold me, God. Hold me!!

Beautiful things out of ashes!

One of my favorite song verses! "You make beautiful things. You make beautiful things out of us!" It's my favorite because I have seen myself as the ashes. I have seen my life as ashes. I felt used, old, abused, abandoned, rejected, unloved, ugly, and a worthless girl. I have gotten to the bottom. I have hit the pavement. All happening because of my ungodly choices and evil treatment towards me by others. I've felt the pain. I've wished it would all stop. I begged and pleaded for all the pain to just end. For happiness to come to my life. Not knowing that God doesn't just want me to be happy but he wants me to be HOLY! Happiness and a peace come with being holy. I love that he wants to take my ashes and turn it into beauty. I love that he can take all the pain I have felt and suffered and offer it to someone to show a peace in my life that only with the Holy Spirit that I can have. It is an amazing feeling. Peace. Calmness. Joy. Goodness. Only God can offer you that. Not a man or a job or any other tangible thing. Christ came into my life and held me strong. He led me to Him even when I wasn't looking. He took MY ashes, drug me from the ground and lifted my face and pointed me towards Him. He made me new! My inspiring scripture today: Revelation 21:4-5: And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.” Then He who sat on the throne said, “Behold, I make all things new.” And He said to me, “Write, for these words are true and faithful.”

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My first post.

God defines you. Not anyone else. It has taken me 36 years to learn this and I feel like I am still learning. I have in my past let everyone other than God define me. I have put all my trust and faith in a man to tell me who I was. Whether I was worthy or not. Whether I was a good person or not. Even if I was pretty or not. I counted on the praise from that person to lift me up or to keep my spirits going. Not knowing the whole time that God already knew me. I took criticism to heart. I held it there. I reminded myself of it daily and told myself that I was what they told me. I took the words and the actions towards me as a rule book of how I should act. If I was mistreated, well...I should be a mistreated person. I didn't smile. It hurt. I didn't want to show happiness when my heart was so broken. I wanted to be loved, not knowing the whole time how MUCH God loved me. How much he knew I was hurting and wanted me to cry out to Him. But I didn't. I looked to a man. I looked to a man to tell me I was loved or not. Some days were better than others. Some had hope but most were sad. Some days I don't even remember, they passed me by without a memory. Just sadness. That's all I felt. I still have days of sadness. But when I'm sad, I look and CRY to God. He brings me joy! He is my breath. He keeps me breathing. I know the plans for you declares the Lord, not to harm but to prosper. These are God's word and I cling to them. For I know that he sees me as a queen. Crowned in His beauty. That He smiles at my laughter, brings me joy. That He weeps with me when I cry, brings me comfort. Christ is my friend. What greater friend to have than one who would DIE for you?!! What defines me? God does. Not a man. Not how I am treated. Not my past. Not my trials. Not others. Only God. Thank you Lord for being my friend and loving me unconditionally. My inspiring scripture today: The spirit of God has made me; The breath of the Almighty gives me life. Job 33:44